Always Think Up

The perfect LOVE story isn’t about a woman and a man… well it can be but first YOU must LOVE YOU the best way that YOU can.  We attract that of which we vibrate and sometimes that shit can hurt. When we dig into all the feels we can really start to feel our true natural worth.. All the wordy words never did a thing for me… I can see the energy in all things and let me tell YOU the truth will set YOU free… think of the words like a puzzle… a piece to get YOU to the next.. Don’t hold onto the labels of words that only helps to hold onto all the stress.. Words can only define YOU until YOU get to the next phase.. Then YOU get a whole new set of words to use to set up your new space.  People stay stuck on the words, on the titles, and the labels… not even realizing that the universe is constantly supporting us to clear off the table. Tonight is the new moon… I like to think of it as a time to recreate… let go of all the things that YOU hold onto that feel anything less than great! Your life is a perfect storm… the rain and winds come in to wash out the ick… holding onto the old is the shit that makes the human body sick. Letting go can be rough on the heart, YOU can feel a bit less loving… but the pushes that YOU feel to get it gone from YOU is that universal shoving.. People don’t seem to get me but its ok because my soul is tuned all the way into LOVE.. We all get choices in this life.. Do we pick the good or all that has hurt us… I know my mission and I know LOVE is here to serve us.. We can Always Think Up… or live a life in the doo doo… if YOU don’t know what YOU are choosing tune all the way inside of YOU… Always Think Up doesn’t mean shit aint really happening.. Along the way i lost pieces of me…in the name of LOVE I have done some snapping.. But when YOU used to be a doormat… a real people pleaser… When YOU are sticking up for yourself in the name of LOVE…at times YOU can feel a little uneasy.. If YOU are having a bad day or time.. Go back and remember everything delicious.. Your thoughts are creating from all of your visions.. Clearing out the old the things that we really don’t need… can feel like your giving up on your child, because its been your seed… its not giving up anything bad, it’s just honoring YOU more by realizing it’s no longer serving… Your heart is on a mission.. Your LOVE has major purpose.. Tuning into LOVE helps when YOU are feeling unsure… Only LOVE is real… only LOVE can cure… the body can heal, people can change, we only have to be willing.. Life is LOVE but LOVE isnt the way they taught us… the lessons can be so chilling.. There is no right or wrong way along the path… its about tuning into that beautiful hearts desires… in LOVE there is no limit… no ending, unless YOU decide to give up or retire.. LOVE is eternal I have always known that i’ve been different… most of the times i felt like I was going against what LOVE was.. Only to find out when YOU are clearing up old hurts and traumas YOU will seem very different… life is measured in vibration.. That means HOW DO YOU FEEL INSIDE??? We cant hold onto people places or things… we have to let humbleness take over our pride… our dreams they will give us strength and keep us moving forward.. Keep us meeting all kinds of new folks… people need people is another thing that I KNOW… the same ole same ole will leave YOU kinda bored.. Be thankful be grateful for each piece plays a part… weather it hurt or felt like heaven.. But YOU gotta feel it all to get it.. We really all are connect, brethren… A good friend of mine today way talking about family… And I was relating so much because he was speaking about how family isn’t always being perfect.. We all mess up, or hold on too long.. But that is all what makes the journey so worth it.. Some YOU vibe with some YOU don’t.. That is all a part of the lessons… Some will fill YOU up with so much LOVE and some will leave YOU stressin… the game of hold on let go… that’s the part that feels tricky… go into your feels… if it feels good it’s right, if its off it can feel kinda icky.  For so very long they have told us what to do, who to be, do all that is right.. But then YOU look at the life they live… if they ain’t living loving the whole, all of them… they are giving YOU fears.. Take advice from the ones that are living there best life.. If YOU are looking for success… get advice from those that are successful.. If YOU are wanting to attract LOVE get advice from those that have a grand LOVE that is respectful… YOU can take bits and pieces and formulate your own puzzle… just don’t accept their fears as advice… it’s like an energetic judgement muzzle… i have experienced this before… it has left me unable to speak… so in that space I needed to take time and tune back into LOVE… LOVE wants us all to be great! I always knew that I deserved the greatest that LOVE had to give… in the beginning i didn’t realize how much work that would take… to clear out my fears and really live… I still believe the same, but now I know we must heal self to attract the healed other… or much of our time in relationships will leave us needing more time to recover… don’t be afraid to be alone.. That has been the biggest blessing on my journey.. My alone time was always filled with LOVE… some have even called me a hermit… I’ll take all of that because the growth in me is phenomenal… I am not at all who I was before… clearing out the demons of fear…and burning then up like charcoal… we get comfortable with our demons.. We get used to their guidance.. But it really is a disconnection from the greatness that really resides in us.. These demons need a place to live.. A vessel to get by… our fears are demons, and until YOU learn to rid yourself… YOU will always feel under attack.. They can feel so understandable.. We hold fears of the hell we went through.. But only LOVE is real… ONLY LOVE is TRUE! For this new moon may we all let go… of these fears that hold us back.. Burn them up and live free in your heart… sometimes in LOVE we need to fight back.. These demons are strong they invade in the spaces YOU are weak… they are winning when YOU feel lack or defeat… ask your angels for help and for guidance.. They are out here hoping that we all find the heaven that is inside us.. I LOVE YOU all because we really are all connected… we have all felt these demons of rejection and abandonment… but it is all from self.. Of self…feel it all to heal and get better… all of us is LOVE, maybe for the new moon just write yourself a beautiful LOVE letter… this is your LOVE story… it’s not up to me or anyone to tell YOU the rights or wrongs… quiet out the noise, and tune into your hearts LOVE song.. I wish YOU all prosperity, strength, and much abundance.. The angels are all around YOU… inside each and everyone of us… LOVE is among us… feel the LOVE it’s really trying to take over… some of us need strength some of us need a little time sober… Some of us need courage… some of us need to yell… but I promise YOU all.. Every heart has a beautiful story to tell… once YOU are ready tell your story… it will heal so many lives… we are doing this for the children to come… the world has been through a giant fight… the war out here is between LOVE and fear… please let LOVE guide YOU… tune into your heart sweet dear… and only let LOVE guide YOU… peace LOVE light and blessings.. YOU are so very worth it… everyone has something huge to do.. Every one of us has a purpose.

Dear Masculine, sweet King, the strength, the sun! I see the LOVE in that heart. I see all the hurt YOU are trying to overcome. I had a horrific dream, but it means YOU getting involved in your feelings. I know this isn’t easy to YOU but trust me feeling is healing. 

In my dream, my daughter and I were enjoying a day at the beach. She was building castles in the sand, I was close by walking in the sea. I felt a little tap against my foot. I looked down and it was a lifeless little boy. He was under the water. Stripped of all his youthful joy. I scooped him up so quick, dragged his body up on land. I didn’t know what to do, I was so afraid but his life was in my hands. I yelled for help but no one seemed to notice, so I went straight to work. I took a huge breath and poured it into his mouth… As I pumped his chest i felt a sudden surge. He began to cough the water up immediately.. As soon as he caught his breath he began to cry… I held him tight to my chest…as I whispered to him that everything is going to be alright. The police were questioning his parents… yet no one was checking on him… He was supposed to be strong… he knew how to swim… Not his mother or his father came rushing to his aid… they were only trying to explain. He was so afraid. He knew to be safe at the beach they said, they came there most of the days… In disbelief I just kept pumping him LOVE, I could feel him warming up….the sun was lighting up his face. I kept humming a song into his ear, until he was strong enough to stand up… Dad did all the explaining, he wouldn’t let the mother speak up.. YOU could see the fear in her eyes..she was riddled with terror…She could just barely breath. I could feel her entire heart shatter. But it wasn’t her place to step in, it was her son, a situation for men. Dad tapped the young boy on his shoulder, your OK boy… get up and shake it off… take a walk in the sand… His little legs tried the best they could…Tru brought him over some water and a towel… I had two best friends not make it out of the water… all my heart could do was just smile… By the end of the dream The boy, Tru, and I were splashing in the water… His body was all the way back to life… the air filled with the beautiful sounds of laughter… 

So I lost two very special men in my life… one to the sea one to the river… this dream really fucked me up… when I woke up from this for a few hours my body just shivered… What does this all mean… to me and everyone else… I knew that this was deep… I knew it was spirit guiding me deeper into myself… I know being fully emerged in the sea, is an energetic symbology of the mothers womb… But my heart couldn’t stop thinking of the men that I lost… they had kids… to me it felt way to soon! 

With all of these emotions flooding my body… I knew I had to nurture myself.. So I looked into the spiritual meaning of dreams of drowning, and it definitely provided some help…

For about 10 years I’ve had this fear of drowning…it was intense, but came from a logical space… Two men in my life that I LOVED so very much, and now I will never see their face. This fear is linked with getting to involved with our own feelings… A deep fear that if we do we will lose ourselves…I want to tell YOU King I know this feeling so well… its deep inside me as well. The ocean is emotions, the subconscious mind is screaming for help! Somethings are hard to process King. I know all too well how not being noticed felt. Drowning in dreams means being bashed with hurtful words or actions.. YOU were just a sweet young boy… taught to toughen up and make things happen. Emotional undertow, at such a very young age. Divine masculine please know I LOVE all of YOU. I have also felt all this rage… We all have fears and traumas, that we are processing the best we can… YOU met me at my favorite place… a divine message on the sand… The ongoing stress in life can eat at YOU…I know YOU feel at times that YOU are struggling just to survive..Trying to find your true identity… The mask YOU wear is only to hide. I know its hard for YOU to relate to others… we are all one we are connected.. Please believe me YOU are divine… even though YOU felt so neglected.. YOU have an internal world of instincts, that YOU were taught to ignore… How to I know this… cause I was raised to be tough like a boy! I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU all of YOU… I know this pain runs deep… trust your healing is happening… please let yourself rest and nurture your needs… 

This is emotional rebirth King! Bringing YOU back to the mothers womb. YOU survived all the turmoil. And others were gone too soon… I see this as another chance at life… please feel safe to let down your guard. I know YOU are going through some heavy stuff.. I know it feels so hard…. Your parents see they LOVE YOU King… they were just raising YOU as they were told. Drowning is symbolic to endings… all of that is over please let your heart unfold. The people don’t really much notice.. they are stuck in their own worlds… but together we can change this for our littles… raise up some LOVING guys and girls… for us to do this we must face all we feel.. and come to ONLY LOVE IS REAL! This dream came to me so I could encourage YOU to jump in YOU and just feel… YOU don’t have to say anything… its OK to cry….you have been so strong… but the feelings are what have been tapping at YOU….feeling is never wrong… I LOVE YOU King I see you are strong… but I see YOU really just want LOVE… I AM sorry for any time I ever treated YOU bad. Please feel my energetic hug… Please know Divine Masculine, we are healing together… YOU are the KING to my Queen… please know as YOU are working on YOU… I AM working on me… 

As the vibration rises, it will get easier and easier I swear… Please know that I LOVE YOU for all that YOU are. MY LOVE was always there… in this great time we get the chance to heal up.. and live a life so full of LOVE… please if YOU ever feel that YOU are alone… just ask for signs from up above… this feeling stuff is work sweet LOVE… I get it because its tough on me… but we are being pushed to face all the feelings we tucked so deep inside.. to set us emotionally free… I LOVE YOU King I honor YOU… I respect the path YOU are on… I only want for YOU the best… please lean in on the heart of God whenever YOU are feeling stressed or alone… as YOU let go of these feelings, and find forgiveness…YOU will see new things arise… it is to check and see if YOU are going to do it with your heart… or put your mask on and just hide… there is no right way in any of this… it is an unfolding of YOU for the greatest good… YOU are spiritually hungry… and there is an abundance of soul food… YOU can’t do this for anyone else.. this has to be special for yourself. Please ask spirit to guide YOU and be open to receive the help.. I will pray LOVE all over YOU… I will think and speak LOVE to all the Kings… Please know that the angels are cheering YOU on.. as YOU continue to face the hurt in YOU they sing… Its only a quiet hum in your ear… to give YOU comfort to continue… no one else can hear it sweet LOVE…its such a subtle innuendo. YOU are divine under all that hurt… This is the unconditional LOVE mission… In your heart there are dreams…. and the vision to your mission… I LOVE YOU because YOU are me… in observing YOU i learned to see us as reflections… Everything YOU feel I feel… there is so much LOVE even in rejection… The unconditional LOVE in me only wants the best for YOU…. SO my prayer today is that YOU have the strength to put your heart into every single thing YOU do… 

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I LOVE YOU Queens…EYE KNOW this isn’t always easy…..YOU ARE a queen, but it comes from the deepest space of believing. 

There are many things YOU must learn, there are many things YOU must change… facing yourself is the beautiful journey of the queen! It gets messy, there are tears…YOU are forming a relationship with SELF…there are doubts there are fears…The all is here to support YOU…YOU are surrounded in help. It comes from deep in the center…your heart anchors YOU into the all… With the purest intention… Deep in your center wants the best for the ALL. A Queen doesn’t get jealous, she just wants to know the truth… But the all that she is connected to…always links up to the physical proof. A Queen is never envious… A Queen stays in HER lane… A Queen takes care of her foundation her community… she aint out here seeking fame. A Queen knows life can throw YOU things, to make YOU face yourself… A Queen carries a heart of gold.. She knows that just the simple thing of sending LOVE DOES help! A Queen has her own dreams in her heart. A Queen won’t let YOU get in her way… A Queen will LOVE the children… And feel the healing energy in their play… A Queen knows about vibration… And what YOU get is what YOU give… A Queen is true to her fucking heart! A Queen KNOWS how she is going to live… A Queen can see right through words… and feel the truth up in her heart… If the queen doesn’t catch the message… it will show up in her dreams.. A Queen is ever protected… she feels every bit of it… SHE KNOWS!!! A Queen doesn’t need some one else to find her inner glow… A Queen is cherished and supported… and treated with the most respect… 

Finding your Queen is deep deep work! But I KNOW that everyone can do this… Look for hints, special messages made for YOU… The all is going to get YOU through this.. Its healing, expanding, going forward.. all at the same time… Feeling into that inner Queen… and knowing that your heart is fully supported by the divine… To find our inner Queen we need to look in and see where are are fears, where do we hold lack… That space can make YOU feel like maybe YOU are off track.. YOU are good in the name of LOVE… the messages are getting more clear… YOU were made to have all YOU desire… YOU just have to clean up that fear… Living fully from the heart.. with zero expectation… KNOWING that YOU are supported by the all… even when the fears in YOU try to get to contemplating… Thats what #alwaysthinkup is ladies… the journey to me changing my brain.. to really learn to embody my body, mind, and spirit… And sharing it in a self LOVE kinda way.. On the journey to your inner Queen… one of the biggest parts is setting the boundries… going with all that we are feeling in our hearts… no matter what is going on in the surroundings.. there will be things… part this and part that… A Queen is not here for parts… but she will gather them and keep it moving..her creation is where its at! On the way to the inner Queen, there will be offers that seem delicious… But as the Queen YOU must feel it in the middle for a while… and make sure that it lines up with your mission! Finding your Queen is ever forward… she doesn’t have time to stop… She knows about vibration… nothing can make her stop… A Queen knows when she needs a break… she knows how to cut out anything… A Queen knows when it is dipped in gold…. And she knows when it runs deep! 

Always GO back to the middle Queen… that is where YOU connection is… its connected to your parents straight through past your kids… it the everything the all… the heart the womb… creation… A Queen has the deepest honor and respect… for the magic of manifestation… The highest good for all… A Queen has no time for competition… she is creating all she desires… a Queen is finally learning to let relationships go that have expired… A Queen will say it in LOVE… and trust it with all her guts… YOU are a Queen YOU have always been enough.. A Queen is a value seeker… She has a divine vision.. A Queen feels passion deep in her heart…when she expresses it… YOU hear her through the loud speaker… A Queen will always stay in her truth.. A Queen will continue to LOVE up her gardens… Build the LOVE all the way up…. A Queen knows that some are off in the give and take… but that don’t mean she gotta get treated rough… Stand up stand in… Your heart my LOVE thats the portal… Its about YOU and all your dreams… The fancy and the formal…. Go in seek in… ask it write it… be open to learn…. the support YOU are seeking is inside of YOU….pick up that internal phone… 

Being a Queen is never seeking LOVE from a man… YOU know what your heart wants Queen YOU gotta be your very OWN #1 FAN!!!! 

I KNOW there is that Queen inside of each and every one of us… I share the do do I go through to show YOU its all just in the name of LOVE… Only LOVE is real my darling…..we don’t have to settle for anything less… Tune all the way in when your happy… Tune all the way in when your stressed… Its a loyalty and honesty like YOU have never known.. if something feels off at all YOU have to know YOU can make it on your own… Being fully supported by the all that is YOU can’t have any expectations… Even when people are hating YOU have to know YOU are fully supported by the all… People only notice when your LOVE is glowing tall… Keep focused Queen stay graceful… focus on the peace that is in your heart….it is your connection… your unique form of art…. 

I AM thankful to know some of the most amazing people… really digging deep to the gold.. Believe me EYE see YOU I LOVE YOU….I KNOW that YOU are bold… This self LOVE is some of the hugest stuff… But I wouldn’t change a second… I focused on my foundation…. and stayed up in my beautiful visions… YOU can too its just up to YOU… what is the baggage that YOU carry? Learn to let it go… find the balance that your heart desires.. I KNOW it seems so scary…. Ask for the LOVE YOU need… know YOU are supported… A Queens heart will always know deep in her heart she is very important ❤

Speak your heart
feel it all 
be around what YOU LOVE 
eat well
learn new things
experience different things 
trust in 
pay attention to the GOD WINKS 
are your intensions pure 
what is an intention 
its the internal voice of YOU 
YOU chose the journey 
it seemed fun
the mission is in your heart
YOU have the fuel
connections everywhere 
the more YOU trust the more YOU see 
YOU are divine 
mistakes don’t matter 
go forward 
every chance to start fresh 
always check in 
take care of YOU 
stretch 
get outside 
dream huge 
learn to receive the vision
at first it seems way beyond YOU 
YOU LOVE YOU and its there
never settle 
take the parts to create the vision 
leave all YOU don’t want 
thoughts create 
what YOU think is what YOU get 
Sex is sacred 
your heart is sacred 
they are very connected 
there is a lesson in rejection 
there is comfort in abandonment 
the old can change 
dis-ease is energetic 
pain is energy misplaced
we hold a lot we are unaware of 
this raise in vibration is pretty massive 
A broken heart is a heart attack
LOVE can bring YOU back to life 
YOU are worth every move 
YOU already know it in your heart what could YOU have to prove
give & receive 
seek value… don’t seek gold
the gold is what you are surrounded in 
YOU are mimicking all that YOU have been told 
LOVE is a wave 
ebb and flow
in and out 
LOVE is out for your very best
and pinched off when YOU pout 
LOVE is loyal
honest to the core 
LOVE is a homies and so much more 
LOVE is trust in the internal vibration
I LOVE you all trust that YOU are OK
know EYE send YOU LOVE in every single way